IM ANGRY MAN. I MEAN HOW CAN YOU! RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
this feeling's taking control;
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
im BORED. was blog surfing and found this off baba's blog(:
What is the best nickname that u ever had? *mm. i dont know.
Do you think suicide is the best way? *NO WAY. its just running away.
Rate your social life from scale 1 to 10..?? *no IDEA.
Are you in love with someone at the moment? *mmm. i dont think so.
Are you missing someone at the moment? *i hope not.
Would you die for the one you love? *it depends, really.
Do you think love hurts? *uhhh. yeah. TOTALLY.
Whats the best thing about love? *the PROCESS(:
Whats the worst thing about love? *the HURT.
Will you wait for someone you love? *maybe?
What song that best describes your love life at the moment? *mmm.
Do you wanna get married? *too far to think.
Have you talked to the person you love in the last 24 hours? *nah.
Do you keep memories or try to forget them? *depends.
Is love always on your side or the opposite way? *i dont know.
Are you sick of love? *slightly.
Are you sick of questions on love? *uh huh.
What are you going to do today/tomorrow? *tmr. trg.
What do u want so badly right now? *strong ankles ):
Do you think money is everything? *NO. its close to nothing. just for survival.
Whats the song that u last downloaded? *cant rmb.
How much do you love music? *okay la. just awesome to listen to.
Do you play an instrument? *piano. learning guitar and drums(:
Have you writen your own song? *composed to lyrics only.
What movie did you last watch? *BENCHWARMERS! :D
Do you believe in love forever? *i used to.
What is in your mind rite now? *i dont know.
What song is in your mind rite now? *i dont wanna miss a thing by aerosmith(:
this feeling's taking control;
Sunday, June 11, 2006
NSL FINALS-STINGRAYS AGAINST VIPERS
yesterday met steph cihui fana at kallang and cabbed down to tpsh to watch the nsl finals(: haha. it was a good game. stingrays against vipers. cant rmb the score but stingrays won!(((: COOL lah. and oh i think ting jun's pretty(: tralalaa. was watching her movement ytd cuz ms lee now playing me as GD. owells. gotta really work hard to get into bdiv07. hrm. owells. cuz stingrays won, now i owe charlene and cheryl chocolate! haha. im nice(: haha. unlike amelia.... hahahahahah. owell. passed bai her gift alr. she said she liked it. thats good(: tralala. then stupid cheryl, who i was sitting beside thruout the game, kept smacking me and hitting my head laaa ): tsk. bullying me. oh nevermind. haha. then after that went to play with ms lee's baby. so cute lah she. haha. then waited and they announced the most valuable players. defender-oops cant remember. haha. i only remember midfield was pearline chan. and all three players were from mannas. ms lee was so proud of her players lah. awesome man(: then they announced the u21s and open squad team. same people lah. the whole of sharks was u21s. then left halfway, mummy came pick me and steph got a lift home. hahaha. in the car she pointed out something really stupid. hahaha. super funny. but hard to say here. tralala. gotta go alr. BYE(:
this feeling's taking control;
Saturday, June 10, 2006
HELLOOOOO :D
DAY3 rawr. i fell sick. like quite sick. sick enough to be sent out to see a doctor at sengkang polyclinic. OWELL. but i heard all about today. haha. ENGSOON had team bondg and it was awesome. haha. dont really know the details, but here are some pictures!(: this was after the indiana arts competition(:
this one i dunnoe what was going on but it seemed like they were having an awesome time!:)
DAY4 kayak expedition! hahah. couldnt wait man. tralala. althou i was still feeling abit shitty, i wanted t go on the expedition laaa. haha. the seeee-ex[the instructors preferred this name] leaders- qingyuan valencia lynnette jiayun sherlene khai made us meet 15 minutes earlier then the given time[0615 over 0630] tsk. 15minutes means alot when ur in obs. haha. and then we set off earlier then targeted. a good start i must say(: and then kayak kayak kayak. we saw this awesome rainbow laa! oh my god. it was like a full rainbow!!! all seven colours-red orange yellow green blue indigo violet! and we could see the start and the beginning of it! was damn cool man. and i heard there was another smaller one beside it, i didnt see that one thou. but it was a beautiful sight. inspiring(:
the beautiful rainbow.
after kayaking for a while, we had to enter a SWAMP. MUDDY SWAMP. at the really small turning, there were these gigantic dogs and this small house on shore[which was really close to the SHALLOW waters, which meant the dog scould easily jump in and swim] it was quite scary thou. and my partner aowcihui, was alr screaming cuz she's afraid of dogs. haha. but we all managed(:
then we came to this bridge we couldnt go under so we had to climb over. and guess what that meant? it meant sinking our legs into soft ankle deep mud which would go deeper and deeper as we step into it. and on top of that carrying 24 kayaks on it. RAWR. dahlia and a few others were the first few to get onto the mud. haha. it was quite funny i must say. ahha. dahlia lost her shoe! haha. well i thought that we really were like 'suffer' together cuz while the others were struggling with the kayaks in the mud, the others were baking in the sun. it was quite cool. dahlia and all stopped to think on how to make the situation better. and brilliantly they made used of planks they found nearby. they placed it on the mud and stepped on it. that increased the surface area so pressure wasnt so intense and we wouldnt sink that much. well that made life alot easier. haha. drg our kayak moving process, people stopped and took pictures of us. haha. think they were tourists. haha. but we were all in such an unglam state for picture time. haha. but it was damn memorable, fooling around in the mud and stuff. after all the kayaks were moved up, we really felt a great sense of acheivement. haha. it was great. but we had to move it back down into the water. this time i didnt really help out cuz my arms really weak le and felt slightly faint. oh well. sorry guys! ): then dahlia and i rested in the shade cuz dahlia lost her shoe then couldnt continue to help. yeah. after that i got onto the kayak with cihui and then we had our lunch. we were tired, but hey! we successfully got out of the swamp! that was great.
and then we kayaked somemore.. and we got lost! turn here turn there. then finally some of us saw this small path with footprints? on it. and that was our way. by then, it alr started to rain. and i was feeling feverish and shivering alr. then we had to transport the kayaks up and back down into the water again. i couldnt help much cuz i really had no more strength alr. SORRY. and then we got back onto the kayak. and daniel caught this small little jellyfish. and we played with it! haha. i was cool. felt to soft and jellylike[duh.] haha! great experience thou(:
and then we kayaked abit more, and managed to reenter into the sea. by this time i alr dying. couldnt kayak anymore. then my stomach started to ache and i felt like i was gonna faint. like oh my god lah. couldnt tahan ready. my hands were like frozen. super cold. and thanks aowci, offering to kayak and asking me to rest. thanks really loads. LOVE YOU(: but aowci was also dying. adding on that she didnt kayaked before. and then came darling dahlia and syaz. they switched partners with us. so i was with dahlia and cihui, with syaz. we managed to move on quite smoothly after that cuz dear dahlia still had so much energy in her. haha. after a while, choon spotted another jellyfish. this time it was a huge one with a long tentacle which would sting you. but it was damn cool coming upclose with jellyfishes. hahahahaha.
and like OH MY GOD! we reached!!! haha. we saw the big OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE sign! we were like PHEW. then we all got on shore and started cleaning the kayaks. i carried a few up and went to wash the kayaks. ahah. it was quite fun laa all the washing and all. then choon was like spraying water at me. i was freezing my butt off alr lah. then spray somemore. couldnt tahan. was shivering uncontrollably. then sharmaine was like 'omg. look at jasmine. she's like frigging cold' and then i couldnt take it alr. then an instructor asked me go back change into dry clothing first. then dahlia came with me. then after that changed, dry alr. went down and had a debriefing after which we went back to our bunks to wash up. then i was alr washed up mah. so i went down to the canteen to set up everything for my watch. and i went to take the food and all for them laaaa. ((((: cuz i felt so bad. so it was amendment time. yeah. then eunice came in and she was like " omg is that our food?!?!?" haha. and i was like "yah.." haha. and could tell they were all so happy. cuz all tired alr then came in food on the table. seeing so many smiles i made was AWESOME!(((((:
haha. that night was also a funny. haha. we decided to make something for daniel. but we had to lights out at 2300 and were released at 2230 so not much time. then we didnt dare leave the lights on and guang ming zheng da do cuz the first night we got punished. yeah. so we switched off the lights and did it in the common area. where all the mattresses were. haha. then we were saying that when daniel comes in we'll all just plop down and sleep. haha. then we had a few tried and tested times where people would come in after going to the toilet. haha. it was funny. then some of us went " daniel very considerate one, when he open door will be very slow and soft cuz he think we're sleeping alr mah. so we still got abit of reaction time lah " hahaha. to our surprise, he opened the door so fast lah. and we all just plopped down. ahhahaha. it was HILARIOUS. then daniel was like " yall dont pretend ah" haha. then he tripped on us and we jumped up. haha. the rest of us were vibrating cuz we were laughing like shit. hahahahha. that night was super memorable. haha. this was the song we did for him. its sung to more then words.
us that night.
MORE THEN DAN The first time we met you We thought you were the 'dao dao' cool cool type You set your expectations Telling us the attitude you want How different You turned out to be from what we thought More than words Is what you mean to everyone of us And we wouldnt have to say That we love you Cause you already know
All the good memories Will always be etched in all of our hearts Your wise advice and guidance Taught us how to be a good leader We thank you So let us express our gratitude No more words Can really describe how we truly feel And we wouldnt have to say That we love you Cause you already know
You were very caring Showing concern to each one of us But we cause disappointments Being late and going overboard We're sorry We dont mean to let you down at all Would you please Forgive for the mistakes we have made And we wouldnt have to say That we love you Cause you already know
Now that we have to go We wish you all the best in all you do We'll miss you loads, Daniel You have been an awesome instructor Here we sing Right straight from the bottom of our hearts So we bid farewell to you Though we cant bear But we still have to go
sweet aye?(:
DAY 5 the last day. awwww ):
everyone was like " its the last time we're doing this.. " everytime we did something like wshing dishes drg lunch. so sad lah. we didnt have pt that day but had a real long morning circle. really made me reflect alot. dont wanna say here thou X: hrm. yeah. it was LIFERUN where we had to go to 12 different stations to reflect on different points in our life. yeah. it was quite meaningful and refreshing. and then at the end of the liferun, the last station i mean, we were asked to run this route to like 'start a new life' yeah. it was really good. really felt like i was a new person, putting down all the horrid and hurtful events and people in my life. THANK YOU OBS(: haha
yeah. we had a final debrief whr we presented the song to daniel. it was quite inappropriate so it wasnt that touching. yeah. then we had a rushed send off. OWELL.
obs was awesome. my instructor, my watch. you guys were great! yeah. im missing obs loads. but owells. everything comes to an end.
this feeling's taking control;
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
OUTWARD BOUND SINGAPORE(:
DAY 1. WHOOHOO! we reached OBS. awesome. i was so darn happy man(: yeah. hrm. when we reached, we were grouped into 3 watches. well, i thought my watch ws the coolest! haa. and the most FUN. yeah. 16people, dahlia syaz atiqah naz eunice lyn jiaxin grace mumtaz xiaowen qing yuan valencia shermaine sharmaine cihui and me(: it was quite awesome lah. having all these cool people in my watch. yeah. hrm after everything all the briefings and all, we started on ur first challenge, THE ROCK WALL. yeah. there were two walls, one sloping one and the vertical one. yeah. for the sloping one, cuz it was easier, we were challenged to climb it BLINDFOLDED. whao. when i heard it, i was shocked lah. then at first i couldnt one, but yeah. my AWESOME friends spurred me on((((: hrm. then managed to reached the TOP lah. the taste of victory was damn cool. yeah. hrm, and we also took pictureees. ENG SOON. BISCUIT FACTORY. and we're the BISCUITS!(: besides all that fun, we had a real horrid night. hurr. it had so many mosquitoes lah. i couldnt really sleep. kept waking up. OWELLS. then at ard 2am, i woke cihui up go toilet cuz couldnt tahan any longer in bed, then her eyes were like SWOLLEN laa. cuz of all the stupid mosquitoes. of all places, her EYES. -faints- sent her to the medical centre, nurse was sleeping soundly, then after that went to the operations room to inform boon. he got the nurse and the nurse went "theres nothing i can do" and we're like =.='' so that night was FRUITFUL.
DAY 2 we woke up early. [still alot of energy] and then we went kayaking. we had the capsizing drill. haha. it was quite FUN laaa. heh. then after that had lunch and all, then proceeded to the inverse tower. hurr. the tower had two sides, the infront and the behind. cihui and i climbed second, and we did the inside one. we were strapped to each other and had to climb all the way up. it was awesome lah. damn cool. i remembered there was one part where i almost couldnt reached, cuz i missed the staple i was supposed to grab. luckily for cihui who pulled me up. THANKS BUDDY(: thank goodness had cihui there, the climb was quite okay. testing mental and physical strength. well, we managed to reach all the way to the top! cool aye. heres how the tower looks like.
anw, i gotta go now. hrm. i'll continue blogging tmr(: tatax.
actually i think im pmsing. OWELLS.
WHERE'D YOU GO, I MISS YOU SO.
this feeling's taking control;
Sunday, June 04, 2006
sometimes, in life. i know there are things i cant control. and cant try to control. cuz, i'll just end up falling hard. so right here, right now. i think im giving up. im not gonna try to do anything anymore. nothing will work. i'll just get hurt and cry. forget it. its useless lah. no one will care. i miss obs so much lah. and nothing's making me feel any better. the feeling SUCKS.